章节五

后来吧，方茴就没再搭理我。

Later, Fang Hui stopped paying attention to me.

但是我对那件事的印象很深。像她那样的人，你放一干干净净的澳洲大海螺在她面前她都不一定抬眼。

But I have a deep impression of that incident. For someone like her, even if you placed a pristine Australian conch in front of her, she might not even look up.

可是她竟然会不顾一切的抢块脏了的石头，而抢过来之后居然又给扔了，简直匪夷所思。光那个画着名字的破玩艺就足以让她情绪的失控了，可见陈寻对她而言很不一般。

Yet she unexpectedly rushed to grab a dirty stone, and after snatching it, she actually threw it away again, which was simply unbelievable. Just that broken thing with a name written on it was enough to make her lose control of her emotions, showing how special Chen Xun was to her.

本来方茴的神秘往事让我暂时缓解了失恋的痛苦，可是时间一长，我也就没什么兴趣八卦人家的生活了。

Originally, Fang Hui's mysterious past had temporarily alleviated my heartbreak, but as time went by, I lost interest in gossiping about other people's lives.

转眼到了我生日，之前欢欢还兴致勃勃的说要送我限量手表，去酒店来个浪漫一夜，现在却只剩下我一个人，落差产生的效果，比我想象的要猛烈。

In the blink of an eye, it was my birthday. Before, Huan Huan excitedly said she would give me a limited edition watch and have a romantic night in a hotel, but now I was left alone, and the contrast was far more intense than I had imagined.

回家的时候路过一个蛋糕店，橱窗很漂亮，架子上摆满了各种花式蛋糕。我站在门口看了看，有一种樱桃芝士的，做得非常让人有食欲，是欢欢最喜欢的口味。

On my way home, I passed a cake shop. The display was beautiful, with shelves full of various fancy cakes. I stood at the door and saw one with cherry cheesecake, looking particularly appetizing, which was Huan Huan's favorite flavor.

但那会我们谁也舍不得花钱买，她说等我过生日时一定要买来尝尝。

Back then, none of us wanted to spend money to buy it; she said she would definitely buy it for me to try on my birthday.

里面胖胖的蛋糕师隔着玻璃冲我笑了笑，我咬了咬牙径直走进去，指指那个蛋糕说，我要这个。

Inside, a chubby baker smiled at me through the glass, and I gritted my teeth and walked straight in, pointing to the cake and saying, "I'll take this one."

和蛋糕师随便聊了聊，他知道是我的生日，便很慷慨的送了我蜡烛和并以促销价卖了我一小瓶桃子汽酒。

I casually chatted with the baker, and since he knew it was my birthday, he generously gave me some candles and sold me a small bottle of peach sparkling wine at a promotional price.

然而，独自拎着包装精美价格不菲的蛋糕走出来，我却发现自己更加可怜了。那个谁说过，寂寞面前，温馨只是种苍凉的掩饰。

However, carrying the beautifully packaged and relatively expensive cake alone as I walked out, I found myself feeling even more pathetic. Someone once said that in the face of loneliness, warmth is merely a desolate disguise.

在公寓楼道里我遇见了方茴，若是平时我肯定迎上去说说话，可我那天情绪实在低落，仅仅点了点头，于是方茴脸上的奇妙表情，便被我错过了。

In the apartment hallway, I encountered Fang Hui. Usually, I would definitely go up to chat with her, but that day I was feeling so low that I just nodded, missing the wonderful expression on her face.

“今天你生日？”她看着我手里的蛋糕和蜡烛问。

"Is today your birthday?" she asked, looking at the cake and candles in my hands.

“嗯。”我一边掏钥匙一边说。

"Yeah," I replied, taking out my keys.

“8月29日？”她仿佛不相信似的。

"August 29?" she seemed incredulous.

“对。”我打开门，随口说：“进来坐坐？”

"Right." I opened the door and casually said, "Want to come in and sit?"

没想到方茴真的跟了进来，这倒让我有点不知所措了。

Unexpectedly, Fang Hui really came inside, which left me a bit flustered.

好在还有蛋糕掩护，我拆开丝带说：“一……一起吃吧，我自己吃不了这么多。”

Fortunately, with the cake as a cover, I took off the ribbon and said, "Let's... share it. I can't eat this much by myself."

“樱桃芝士？”方茴看着蛋糕眼睛闪了闪。

"Cherry cheesecake?" Fang Hui's eyes brightened as she looked at the cake.

“哈，女孩子都喜欢这个吧。”我笑着说。

"Ha, all girls like this, right?" I said with a smile.

“也有男生喜欢。”她拿出蜡烛说。

"Some boys like it too." She pulled out the candles.

“嗯，我也喜欢。”我说，而她又用那种特别的目光看了我一眼。

"Um, I like it too," I said, and she gave me that special look again.

“那你还喜欢什么？”她笑着问。

"What else do you like?" she asked with a smile.

她从未如此温柔待我，因此我也就来了精神。

She had never treated me so gently, and so I perked up.

“我是万金油，永远跟不上潮流，不会来事儿，喜欢的都特土。当年看圣斗士，人家都崇拜星矢，可我就觉得他是打不死的小强，结果我们班女生都不借我书看了。”

"I'm like a jack of all trades, never keeping up with trends or flattering anyone, and my preferences are all pretty cheesy. Back when I watched Saint Seiya, everyone admired Seiya, but I thought he was just a cockroach that wouldn’t die. As a result, the girls in my class stopped lending me books."

再说男孩都不喜欢吃甜的吧，可我就喜欢，还老老实实跟别人说……还有啊，现在特流行喝这种汽酒吧，你知道我喜欢什么吗？

Moreover, boys usually don’t like sweets, right? But I do, and I honestly told others... Also, it's quite popular now to drink this kind of sparkling wine. Do you know what I like?

“百事？”她挺认真的问。

"Pepsi?" she asked seriously.

“那多洋气啊！我告诉你，你可不许笑。”我摆了摆手神秘的说：“冰红茶，统一的。”

"How trendy! I tell you, you mustn't laugh." I waved my hand mysteriously and said, "Ice black tea, from Uni-President."

方茴深深的看了我一眼，让我竟然有点不敢回望。

Fang Hui looked at me deeply, making me somewhat hesitant to meet her gaze.

“今天我也流行一把，桃子味儿，来点么？”我摇摇手里的小酒瓶，遮挡自己的忐忑，方茴的眼睛随着淡粉色的玻璃晃来晃去，终于还是盯住了我，那种注视让我茫然，我不知道是自己做了什么还是怎样，总之今天的方茴对我有些……特别。

"I'm also trying something trendy today, peach-flavored. Want some?" I shook the little bottle of alcohol in my hand, trying to hide my nervousness. Fang Hui's eyes followed the pale pink glass as it swayed back and forth until finally they locked onto me. That kind of gaze left me perplexed; I didn't know what I had done, but in any case, today Fang Hui seemed a bit... special towards me.

就在我胡思乱想的时候，她却垂下了头，轻轻的说：“好，给我一杯。”

While I was lost in thought, she lowered her head and said softly, "Okay, pour me a cup."

我拿出两只马克杯把酒到了进去。其中一只是欢欢的，她没带走我也没丢掉，人原来对过去都有不可思议的执念。

I took out two mugs and poured the wine into them. One was Huan Huan's; she didn’t take it with her, and I didn’t throw it away either. People indeed have an inexplicable obsession with the past.

方茴已经把蜡烛点燃，整个屋子被微微一点光晕笼着，浪漫而不真实。

Fang Hui had already lit the candles, and the whole room was enveloped in a faint glow, romantic yet unreal.

“不好意思，偷吃了樱桃。”方茴指了指残缺以下快的蛋糕俏皮的笑了，那个时候我以为自己看到幻像。

"Sorry, I stole a cherry," Fang Hui pointed to the partially eaten cake and joked, at that moment I thought I was seeing an illusion.

我也捡起了一只樱桃扔进嘴里，努力几下吐了出来，樱桃梗漂亮的打了个结，是我舌头的杰作。

I also picked up a cherry and popped it into my mouth, making an effort to spit it out. The cherry stem tied beautifully into a knot, which was my tongue’s doing.

“如果能把樱桃梗打结，就说明很会接吻！”我不知所谓的说着，面对这样的方茴我不知道该怎么做，该怎么说。

"If you can tie a cherry stem into a knot, it means you're great at kissing!" I said nonsensically. Faced with this version of Fang Hui, I didn’t know how to act or what to say.

因为不一样，真的不一样。

Because it was different, really different.

可惜那只打了结的樱桃梗没能让我脱离尴尬，相反的，它起了到现在我也说不清是好是坏的作用。

Unfortunately, the tied cherry stem didn't help me escape the awkwardness; on the contrary, it played a role that I still can’t determine if it's good or bad.

方茴平时略显苍白的脸颊泛起了微微粉色，两只眼睛雾蒙蒙的，她透过樱桃结，看着我，举起杯，嘴唇一张一翕的说：“生日快乐！”

Fang Hui's usually pale cheeks turned slightly pink, her eyes misty. Through the cherry knot, she looked at me, raised her cup, and her lips moved with a smile, saying, "Happy birthday!"

桃子酒一饮而尽，或许甜香的东西最易蒸发，她的眼角滑出了一点眼泪。

The peach wine was downed in one gulp; perhaps sweet and fragrant things evaporate the easiest, as a tear slipped from the corner of her eye.

继而她哭出声音。

Then she began to cry.

那一瞬间，我突然明白了。

In that moment, I suddenly understood.

今夜的方茴，说的每一句话，每一个可爱的小动作，每一次微笑，每一滴泪，都不是给我的。

Tonight, every word Fang Hui spoke, every cute little gesture, every smile, and every tear was not meant for me.

我默默等她的肩膀停止颤抖，然后问她：“今天，也是陈寻的生日么？”

I quietly waited for her shoulders to stop shaking, then asked, "Today is Chen Xun's birthday too, right?"

方茴抬起头，刚才存在的那副生动面孔已经消失不见，这才是在我面前真正的方茴。

Fang Hui looked up, the vivid expression from before had vanished. This was the real Fang Hui before me.

奇怪的是，发现了这点之后，我有些难受。

Strangely, after realizing this, I felt somewhat uncomfortable.

“你相信么？可能人总有点什么事，是想忘也忘不了的。就算时间再久，躲的再远，也不管用。心里放不下，只一点点，就够了。”她握着欢欢的马克杯轻轻地说，“你们一天生日，8月29日，处女座……”

"Do you believe it? Maybe there are some things that people can't forget no matter how hard they try. No matter how much time passes or how far they run, it’s useless. If you can't let go in your heart, just a little bit is enough." She held Huan Huan's mug gently and said, "You both have the same birthday, August 29, Virgo..."

后来，在我和陈寻生日那天，方茴在我的澳洲小屋里缓缓的讲了很长的一个故事，长得我站在海这一头却看到了那一头，长得我和他们一起重新过了那年那月，长得TM跨越了足足十年时光，长的让我看见青春突然白发苍苍……

Later, on the day of Chen Xun’s and my birthdays, Fang Hui slowly told me a long story in my little Australian house, long enough that I felt I stood on one side of the sea while seeing the other, long enough that I relived that year and that month with them, long enough that it spanned a full ten years, long enough that I saw youth suddenly turn gray...